experiences of foster parents

There is no support for a kinsman by the family. After you have been asked for help, every ugly emotion is thrown at you by family. I had all of those growing up. I read a book called “Raising Abel” by a woman who fostered and eventually adopted a toddler out of a horrific home situation. How is someone supposed to heal from emotional/mental wounds if they’ve misidentified the source of the pain? It is about history. I hate that I’m slowly turning into the stereotypical foster mom. The one family member who I was most worried about was the one who had come forward. I wanted an honest Rant. I agree, you have due reason to be offended by the state-allegation of personal ‘racism’ instituted as part of your foster parenting training. And I would propose that we’re more messed up than we even know. Well, with foster parents we are often dealing with children who are stealing, lying, fighting, self-injuring and a host of other things before breakfast. Thank you soooo much for being honest. We got up at all hours of the night to feed her. I read about your passage and I really showed me another perspective and it opened my eyes. I have considered taking full Custody of him which would wipe our CPS from our lives but since his Mom would never agree to this, upon legal advice I have been advised NOT to pursue this. My purpose in writing this is to help you see what things are like as a foster parent. And if they pass (they often don’t) then you start preparing the children for their move to the family member. The other side of this is that most CPS workers are massively overworked. The stories came in response to “ Losing a Foster Child,” the most recent essay by Meghan Moravcik Walbert, who chronicled the time her family spent with the foster child she nicknamed BlueJay. Sorry for the typos. We were told she was not adoptable and even found another available baby. or foster someone? Spent 3 full days on his appointments before his parent visit. We have been fostering a brother and sister this entire time and we related to all aspects of your post and LOVE the ‘humor’ in your post. That was a big deal for me, because one of my biggest challenges was learning to trust people. And during all of this you are supposed to be talking up their parents so the children won’t have a negative view of their them. Then they’d be OK. Because, while we weren’t there, we can still provide some input on what they should or shouldn’t have done. Then the second slide said “recognizing your own racism and adoptism is painful.”. Or, that I have stock that needs to be fed before dark thirty. Thank you for laying it out here for all to read… for preparing me a little better for what I know is coming our way… IF our paperwork ever gets done. then in 2016 I was trying to get her to take me back I said to her are you willing to take me back she said no to me because she is working all the time and she change of life then I asked her can I change my life with you she said no again and she says she has another man in her life then I asked her what can he take care of me while you’re working no he is a businessman he will not have time for you are fed up with you then I begged and begged and begged her to take me back and she said no because I’m too hard to handle message please please please I started crying to her then she said no for the last time no I understand now I’ve ruined her marriage and she probably doesn’t want me to ruin her new relationship so I so I understand now you do not want me to be with him now I know I do not want to destroy another life already burned so many bridges and I burned yours so all I ask for is your forgiveness now and I’m so really really sorry mom I love you mom you’ll always be in my heart always be in my heart, I meant you don’t won’t me to be with you or him, I wish I beg too jesus Christ please let me my foster mom tina baldonadno please jesus let her take me back, To my foster mom the song please forgive me Bryan Adams I’ll remake if I can can any give me Bryan Adams number too get a hold of me my number. He had 3 other foster only family placements before he was matched with us (adoption only). I don’t recall exactly, but I believe that the attorney representing the children should be having regular contact with them. This is my opinion. So when they ask you if you are a sexually satisfied individual (and they will) or if you are in the middle of an adulterous relationship it actually is the business of the state to know. They made the claim that *simply because I am white* I was a racist. My second foster child, Yvette, was like this, and she was my biggest challenge. I said “I want thay life,” committed to never using drugs again, started going to church, and my life was completely changed. Foster parents, even the bad ones, have had their life disrupted in ways that you cannot imagine. I am in the same boat without a paddle. But concerning your fear, this verse popped into mind: “For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline.” 2 Tim 1:7. But no, I need to acknowledge my own racism (according to the training) because I’m white. Yours truly, Your spouse is not allowed to see your responses and I have heard of instances where a couple is denied a foster license because one of the marriage partners is having an affair and refuses to stop. I’m an English major, after all. I didn’t make mention of it because I hadn’t experienced that directly. Again, thank you for your honesty. I am a single business woman working from home as well. The Meth relapse rate is officially 92%. 1-6 months, depending on his age, level of care and expediency of the court. Maybe I should just get a second dog and call it a day! The responded by giving us 400.00 a month plus a list of therapists phone numbers and we never heard from them again. Before I was a foster parent this stuff didn’t really bother me. This has been the most humiliating, degrading, heartbreaking thing that has ever happend to me including the death of my only daughter. the needs of foster parents based on their experiences and perceptions. All that you have written about we have experienced. 9 are in the system and not sure what’s going to happen to #10. Wow, I needed to read this today. We have talked about doing foster care with them, and they are all on board. That’s a horrible position to put someone in. The reason that a lot of your (probably most of them) foster kids are in the situation they’re in is because of racism that will never, ever, affect you simply because you’re white. They do it because they see it worked out in their “natural” homes. Bullshit, I say. If we r doing well for these children leave me alone so we can rest. “How do we fix it?”  Well, in many ways you can’t. The second was someone I saw at a roller rink. That was an amazing reveal. Their families? Particularly insightful is your statement saying that poverty and class issues are often confused with race issues. With no transition, the 20 month old boys were taken from the loving foster family and given to the parents, thankfully kept on a trial reunification, but with inadequate oversight. That is the extent that CPS monitors the family. Although I have the privilege of being an adult now, sometimes I wish I could be a kid again. I was running my life, it was not running me. think again. More truma being put on the children trough the system, of which you now have to be a part of, due to the Foster system requirements. in the 5 years we have been fostering, we have never even come close to any potentially adoptable children in our home even though the agency has had 11 other homes going though an adoption process. This is rarely the case. me), but I didn’t have any bio-kids of my own. Devastation will occur at some point. Kevin THANKYOU do much for writing this. They were all under three at the beginning. Foster care is difficult. Learned last night that their broken hearts can’t handle it any longer. Foster parents come from a range of professions, and if there are a substantial number of you (that aren’t too exhausted by the fostering paperwork), you should AUTHOR A PAPER on the changes that need to take place. 1. Both are actually bad conditions. But what about the bio kids who share their rooms? That is every bit as legitimate. (We haven’t tried at all yet). On Monday DHR came and took her away. That is always the question isn’t it? She has put her hands in my face, lied to us, has made cruel comments, talked of confidential situations in public,threatened us and all around placed the child in danger in more than one situation. If members of a certain race tend to demonstrate certain attributes (good or bad) and a person makes a judgment call regarding an individual person’s attributes on account of some trend within a racial group, that is not racism, that is stereotyping. My husband (35yo) and I (28yo) just completed our first day of CORE training. That I vent and bring up all his faults to strangers I’ve barely met. And doubly so because the basis of the statement was simply my skin color, which is itself, a racist statement. I will share this information with my sister since she has decided to foster kids. Kinship placements are a hard thing, and social services do their best to place children with kin. There are 10 characteristics of a community that builds well-adjusted children (who also tend to commit less crime and not live in poverty). ! And do it quickly. There must be some way of identifying common traits of a successful re-unification and if a situation doesn’t have any of those a judge could determine that a case could be fast-tracked. As you are probably aware, Singapore has a very strict drug trafficking laws, and the laws react strongly to anything detrimental to public peace. Some black city council members wouldn’t listen to my dad because he was white (they told him so to his face.) The minute the drug testing stops, the use begins again – and it takes almost a year for things to slide back down to the point where someone will actually step in and remove the children. People do not understand what it is like until they have experienced it. Evil exists in the world. It has taken decades of sorting through my emotions and mental health to admit that what I experienced was actually abuse and neglect… yet my parents aren’t completely evil. They were actually quite contrite about what Meth had done to their family. To a nonfoster family they would think you are over exaggerating but it is was a foster parent goes through every single day. I told my family, and my friends (ala facebook), and was all excited. We do this for the kids, problems and all and what the author wrote is all true, but the county, the workers the bureaucracy is what has soured me and made me question what we’ve been doing the past 21 years. I am going into this with the assumption that I would have them forever, and would eventually be able to adopt them (in NJ, the foster-adoption is easier.. so I’ve been told). My friends and family say that it is not too late to have kids, but to go back into the dating scene (“I like scary movies, you?” “My favorite color is green…”) just makes me want to vomit. Lost our foster son in June. Know that, like our social care system, psychiatry is a developing science – not perfect, and certainly not exact. But, who am I to tell Cps what to do. I watch white people acting untowardly as much as black people. that was on a Sunday afternoon. I said yes to everything I was willing to take the baby do what I had to to protect the baby & care for the baby they came out did home inspection everything looked good told me the baby would come here when she got discharged frm hospital.. while doin paper work ask if I had any health prob like heart probs ect I said no & stupid me being honest I told him I was on prescription meds & he prob wouldn’t even ask me but I told him anyways I ask will that be a prob he said no it shouldn’t he told me would I be ok w DCS ckmin here for home visit each month & I may have to do parenting classes i said that’s fine . Change the law! Luisa. The same way that I can be accused of it except that I’ve lived my life and nobody else has. There can always be found relative inequalities within any culture or society – having grown up in a predominantly white culture, perhaps your empathy was sensitized more to that context (-did you notice whether those 2 non-white people that you knew had to put up with more questions about their backgrounds/more obstacles in their way to succeed? But CPS says that if parental rights need to be terminated that they(CPS) have failed. I also understand that, although many people have had it much worse than me, what happened to me as a kid was not okay. And still be their for the children’s daily needs. Thank you for this post, and the replies… I think I may need to have a serious sit down with my brain over this. There may be some other aspect of foster/adopt that you are better suited for. They won’t have to dress themselves. Then they stay a little longer. But; Nothing could have prepared me for the Chaos and dysfunction God had dropped me in the midst of. We never had that request denied but it’s still a pain in the butt. The seven person jury unanimously terminated rights of both parents. You ask what is going on and you are told “oh, the parents are still working the plan.”  (You hear that a lot). I also find it really helpful because it gives you an insight and the reasoning behind the poor choices we as the middle class perceive to to be terrible parenting. That is a really intense look onto foster/adopt dealings with the state. But then on Feb 18 at 10:37 I received a reply to an email to our caseworker asking what happened to the person . This is my take on well over a half decade of trying to have children which ultimately culminated in my adoption of three children whom I love. And, for my wife and me, it has been among the most rewarding experiences of our lives. The emotional toll is a deep one. 3. manipulation — imagine being a young child yourself, removed from the care of your family and then bounced from home to home where who knows what happens. I appreciate hearing the real nitty gritty of what this duty requires and not the glossed over spiel that the social workers give. That would seem to indicate that they get out of the system quicker. The first is guarding my heart from becoming too emotionally invested in this little person. Wow. I went into my first long-term placement when I was 7 years old. Hallelujah someone who understands! . But I acquiesced. But because I am so far away from them it does make things more difficult. And I am committed to death to my children’s (adopted) mother. Foster patents need a dukr group and someone out there who will have our backs. In terms of the number of children waiting to be adopted Black children are almost even with White children despite having a general population 3 times lower. I have no idea how people do it or if I could. Each family needs to get a home study done, which takes several weeks. Everyone has their El Guapo. I agree, their are better placements outside of family members as well. But everyone’s experience is unique. My foster family was lucky someone being one of their foster kids (being me) has Asperger’s syndrome and a adolf hitler and Nazi obsession, to pull off the speech to save all their butts and mine too. The first thing these children need is stability, not false hope. only noted that black children’s plights need to be acknowledged”. And I can’t help but think that a lot of this behavior could have been avoided if that family had never fostered. That has been done. They will get tucked in at night. If you want the chance to make a lasting impression on a child's life, and grow as a parent and individual, the foster care application process is relatively straightforward. I am a new foster mom (approved 7 days ago) . have clean driving record ect .. anyways the next day the mother txt me sayin they took the baby so I called askin when will the baby be here & did get it discharged yet he told me I wasn’t approved wtf . The sacrifice might be mustering up the courage, it might be having hard conversations with your son, or it might be something completely different. For most of them, it’s a feeling that they have never felt before. The filmmaker got a surprise when a family of addicts allowed them into their house. , or whether there are differences in adoption rates of ‘white’ vs ‘non-white’ kids in the foster system for example?) Given that there are more impoverished white children (who presumably had white parents) than black children (4.2 million to 3.6 million) in the US how can the statement that “if you are white you (definitely) have benefited from racism” possibly be true? 9 months later we had to send the children back to the incompetent and mentally ill bio mother. My daughter and her husband fostered twin boys for 20 months (since they were removed from bio parents at birth). I figured out who the parents, grandparents, baby-dads, former baby-dads, cousins, uncles and aunts were. The parents slept off the high until 11:00 in the morning. From first hand Experiance I can relate to every persons story/nightmare. Your an impressive writer. My family has dobeen foster care for 18years and they just recently “retired.” Everything you have said is absolutely true. A private adoption from another country sounds more and more appealing because it completes once that child is placed with you and you bring them into the country. Wow, thank you so much for sharing and for choosing to foster children. At this point in time, I have to put up with all of this emotional tug of war for the next 7 months at which time her paternal rights will be taken away from her and I can legally adopt him as my own – at the age of 80! I have heard so many stories like this. Namely, the things that MAKE foster care necessary. The emotional roller coaster will eventually stop and then we can all enjoy the ride as a family! These are called progress reports. It helps them become more manageable both for the foster parent and for themselves. It can make a real difference in a child’s life. So, if anyone is considering fostering cause they think that is a better road to adoption will have a rude awakening. Because, quite frankly, we get shit on a lot. To this day I have never know a greater grief. Your email address will not be published. Now, I’m divorced. To do something to help make permanence an attainable goal for all these children. I would liek to adopt the 3 yr old and keep her in the family but since I cannot keep the 7 yr old – and I do not think our home is the best one for him anyway – social services will not let me adopt her. To quote John Wayne, “Courage is being scared to death, but saddling up anyway.” In this case, it would be knowing that you’re going to get hurt but committing to it anyway. So I’ve been googling foster parent experiences. To pay for the anti-depressants and therapy you need from dealing with the children (that’s a clumsy attempt at a joke). I meant to reply to this earlier, but wow, you are going to have your hands full! Yeah. The one worker is a monster. Developmental Delays. It cannot be proved, only correlated, and the correlation is weak, if at all. I don’t know how you have the energy to do it but i guess God gives us the strength we need to get through each day. This is real life for many children. They played together nearly everyday. Some days I would do it all again, some days I wish I had never taken the foster classes. You need to believe that it is your duty to be a foster parent. In our foster group, none of us needed the money. During the entire certification process, the agency makes you feel like they are there for you, and you are important. Foster parent training covers the many rules foster parents must abide by, such as locking up medication, completing paperwork, and not taking a child out of state without permission. And then December 24th, Christmas Eve, 2010 came. This is going to sound harsh, and that is not my intent, but with the realities of how things work, I suggest you grieve instead. Kevin, thank you for your honesty. I think it is what my wife and I have been called to do.. but it is very scary… I truly admire your strength and determination. Thank you for writing this. That sexual abuse the others go threwthrough. My only option to ever being able to give a child a loving home and very loving father, is adoption or fostering. As the “foster grandmother” who loves these children dearly, it has been heartbreaking to lose them and know that their young lives have taken such a devastating downhill turn. Are you submitting that “paper” as a previous commenter suggested? It is sad, because I could give a child a nice home with many advantages, help with their education, show them the beauty in this world, but not at this cost. Heh, you could be so lucky. A very slim number of people actually do the rash things that we hear about, but every foster parent has had the moment when the temptation for rashness would have liked to take over. But such a blanket insult against all white people simply because of the color of their skin without regard for historical, economic, and philosophical considerations is unfounded, unwarranted, and, itself, racist. I read this today (valentines day, Saturday, first day of the school holiday) while hiding out in my bedroom, tearing my hair out leaving my husband to deal with the 3 siblings we have in, plus our own toddler. We live every day knowing the kind of physical, emotional and spiritual poverty that they live in and it kills us. Placements are dependent on race and religion (being Christian, a Muslim child, or Hindu child, will not be placed with us). One may claim this is walking around with blinders on my eyes. If it is termination then family members have 90 days to come forward and claim the children. But a quick email says i will get back with you, or we don’t have any new info.. or No They can not talk to their extended Family (which is what our children wanted to do, call Grandma). I mean as a white person, you do benefit from racism/white privilege despite whatever hard work you think you put in, as compared to a person of color. Boys in the foster care system tend to be on medication, especially once they get past 5 years old. A poison pill is basically a guaranteed consequence. Everybody needs to do so, not just white people. help!!!! But to work, morality must be improved among all colors. Learning about white privilege is not a personal attack on white people. But that often takes even longer to get than judicial permission. We had one emergency foster placement because there was an allegation of inappropriate behavior. They either fight like maniacs because there is no parent to stop things before they get out of hand or they are incredibly close because they need to in order to simply survive. Honest Self-Evaluation. I have been shocked at the level of devastation I feel. I find issues such as racism and classism to be like that, we think we know, but we actually don’t. You might try giving him some canvas, some paints, some brushes and some space outside. We were dragged through the courts, treated like scum by CASA, DHS and the bio family. If you think it can’t happen to you . With that in mind I would suggest finding a local church as a start. Thank you for your honest and forthright ‘devoile’ of the foster parent experience. The greatest obstical I still face every day is the foster and adoption workers mandating and dictating my life and decisions. (The word “slave” is derived from the word “Slavic”). The boys are still with their birth parents after 6 months despite the court knowing that things are not going well in the home (lots of conflict between the parents who are now splitting up, the mother keeping the children inside all the time, neglect that doesn’t quite reach the level necessary to remove the children). 2. grief of the child . My husband works two months out in the oilfield and is home seven days. Thank You. You have married parents. I noticed that you referred to the “chain of poverty”. The order goes. We truly understand and THANKFUL, beyond words, for all that you Foster Parents do. Foster parents get a lot of training. But in the end, we are built for relationships and remote relationships, while beneficial, are not the same. This is because any complex system such as a multi-million, multi-decadal system such as a human culture is *impossible* to measure. 30 hours of training and that is what I learned, remembered and have implemented. In every way, yes! 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